Reuniting with my running shoes

They were begging to go for a run!

They were begging to go for a run!

I’m back baby! Well, sort of. Determined to get in a good run this week, I took the whole week off. I rolled on my foam roller, did some low-impact strength training and had a two-hour intensive massage.

After last week’s failure, I decided to take the run indoors to the treadmill. Not my preference, but the weather was gross, and if I failed again, I could just stop and do something else.

I planned to run a glorious 5K. Don’t push it, I thought.

But I couldn’t help myself. I ended up running just over 10K. I just got into the zone and it felt so good to be back. My knee hurt a little, but it was nothing I couldn’t push through. I told myself I should stop at 5K, even though I felt fine. “You’re barely recovered, you dummy,” I thought to myself. “Don’t  re-injure yourself.” I had a serious mental argument with myself. If anyone could have heard my internal dialogue, you would have for sure thought I was insane.

Practical me kept telling me to stop. Take it easy. Don’t push it. Don’t be a hero.

But competitive me kept saying, you can do this! You feel great! You’re hardly even sweating. Your knee is fine! Don’t be such a wimp. Keep going!

I’m paying for it a bit today. My knee is tender, but it’s not a total disaster. I can definitely tell I’m on the mend and I’m still feeling great from the rush of endorphins from last night’s 10K.

This is a perfect illustration of why non-runners think runners are insane. Even when we’re injured we can’t take a break. We’re addicted to endorphins. Without running, I feel horrible. Weak, lazy, anxious. After a few weeks off, I feel certain that I’ve lost all the muscle mass and endurance I accumulated while training for the marathon and I swear my calves are not as defined. “I’m not a runner anymore,” I think with dismay.

It’s crazy, I know. But I suppose if I’m going to be addicted to anything, this is certainly among the healthier vices.

6 Comments

  1. Christine November 12, 2013 / 11:38 am

    Haha! Glad I’m not the only one. Went through a breakup a few weeks ago and took a week off of running. Was convinced last week I’d lost all of my training from the Scotia Half.

    • Miranda November 12, 2013 / 11:40 am

      Ooh I’m sorry to hear that. Hope you get back out there soon, and don’t worry. You’ll be fine once you get back into it. Sign up for another race if you need motivation. I just signed up for. 5K fun run on Sunday!

  2. rickboudreau November 12, 2013 / 1:33 pm

    Hey at least you got back out….don’t worry about time or distance, “listen” to how your body feels. There is no right way to come off a marathon, only what works for you. I always try to at least plan a “maintenance” routine until the next race comes along.

    Remember there are no pressures of training right now, enjoy !

    • Miranda November 12, 2013 / 8:22 pm

      Thanks. Wise words of wisdom. You must be a seasoned marathon runner 🙂

  3. Auntie Terri November 12, 2013 / 9:08 pm

    I’ve been nursing a sore hip for a month…. but still running (a little)…and I’m convinced that after a year of ever increasing speed and distance… it’s all gone!

    • Miranda November 12, 2013 / 9:11 pm

      My super smart running friends assure me that this is not the case. Your body remembers and even if you lost some stamina and endurance, you gain it back faster than when you first started. Good luck with the hip! Do you ever go to yoga?

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